12/22 VIII

I want to be a child again
I was so oblivious to the world around me
I didn't need friends and my family loved me. And I loved them.
Everything was easy.
I had no worries.
I was so happy
I was so happy
Even if they hurt me. Even if they left me alone. Because that was normal. So I was happy.

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